Between work and sleep I’m basically sitting in bed, stalking the internet, and filling my mind with the fluff that is cable television.
And I keep telling myself it’s to unwind. To be doing something I don’t have to pay attention to. “I deserve this”, I say to the small part of my brain that still has expectations. And it says back “No, you really don’t”.
So. In order to actually accomplish anything, I’ve realized something that I am not at all proud of. I’m going to have to make lists. Keep a schedule. Blog/write about it so that there’s some accountability. Otherwise, it will never get done. Nothing that I plan will ever come to fruition. What a useless little human I am.
Now…what to start with? Easy stuff, obviously. I am, may I remind you, practically useless. And I’ll probably have to tweak the times allotted and such. How about:
1) If I’m going to spend time stalking the internet and watching television, then the least I can do is make it something informative. I used to know what was going on in the world (or I thought I did). So I’ll dedicate 1.5 hours or so to getting informed. Except on Sundays, when I will read the Times…which takes 3 hours on its own.
2) French. Yessss. I’ve taken enough that I should be able to study up and speak and read and write and eventually, actually know how to do any of those things en francais. I’ll start with an hour per day, and move it up accordingly.
3) Crap…a third one? Exercise should go here, but I’m not that committed yet. So something else that will improve my self esteem. Liiiiiike, whitening my teeth. Yep. What a cop out. I told you, warned you, completely freaking useless.
I think I’ll go bake something now. I promised my mother whatever she wants. Which could be beyond my abilities (and current bank balance).
